Colorism in Childhood
As I stated in some of my previous posts I grew up being one of the only Black girls' in my class from kindergarten to eighth grade. Though I connected well with my peers and found it pretty easy to make friends despite me being African American and my friends being Caucasian I still felt like I was a clownfish swimming in a school of goldfish. Once I entered high school there was a larger presence of Black girls in my class however since I was accustom to being around mainly white people I was told I acted white and not black. This put me in a perplex state cause not only was I not able to fit in with my white friends and peers I also could not fit in with my black friends and peers. High school is when I started to gain more Asian American friends and they accepted me for who I was and did not try to categorize me into any group. We all bonded over the concept of being a minority in general. Once talking with them I learned about various stereotypes and divisions within their own race community and we discussed how they had theirs and how the black community had race division within our own race as well. We talked about the expectations and characteristics of our races and how we matched them and didn't match them and also discussed the complexity of skin tones within our race. I found out in some Asian cultures such as in China, they prefer to be a light fair skin tone. My one friend didn't like to tan because he gets very dark and that was seen as a negative characteristic to have.
In my own community, I've faced judgment because I am of a lighter complexion. Some encounters I have had with people in the black community about my skin tone are that I am a "lightbrite" "light-skinned (in a negative tone)" "redbone" and even "easy". A lot of people think I am mixed raced or of Latino descent. Black guys believe me to be easy because a common stereotype of light skin black girls is that they have a lot of sex and are willing to do anything. I am not sure where or how this stereotype started but it has put me in very uncomfortable situations. I know that some people of lighter complexion in the Black community try to pass as white and this was very common during segregation days and even nowadays this still occurs. This is very upsetting to me that people are ashamed of who they are and where they come from. I do not like this segregation in my own community. Some people of darker complexion think that people of lighter complexion think that they are better than them because of the passing concept and because White people accept lighter complexion Blacks over darker complexion. I have seen and witness this happen before as well. I've been told that I am pretty for a Black girl and even in the work field I have received better treatment than some of my co-workers who are of a darker skin tone.
Fascinated and intrigued by this concept I decided to look more into this and see others stories in experiences of colorism within their own community. A journal article that I read by an African American woman, Trina Jones, talks about colorism in Vietnam and the colorism she faced growing up in the United States. She speaks to a Vietnamese woman and here are some quotes that she shared with her "When I was a child, I spent a lot of time in the sun and I tanned easily, becoming dark after just a few days. This was not really a concern when I was young, but I remember my mom despairing as I grew up that she let me get too dark" (Michelle 2012).
When Trina herself was in Vietnam this is what she observed, “As I looked around, I also noticed that many women riding on bicycles and motorbikes wore long sleeves and hats and had similarly covered the lower halves of their faces with cloth. Some even wore white gloves" (Jones 2013).
Reading these stories and reflecting back to my childhood I realized how hard it truly is to be a part of a minority community. Not only are you faced with judgment from the majority race group and other races as well but also stereotypes within your own community. This can make one start to doubt their own identity and want to fit into some type of group but can't. It is very frustrating and a huge stressor for both adults and children alike. I am so grateful for the friends I have now and that I am able to discuss these topics with them in an open-minded environment.
In the future, I hope to help other young minority children have an open and safe place to discuss these topics because it is a very important conversation to have. Children need to have a sense of security and comfortably in defining their identity. They shouldn't have to feel constricted to fit into boxes that society, culture, race, and ethnicity gives them.
Here is a chart that I found very fascinating that helps further explain the idea and concept of passing and shows the Tri- Racial system in America
(Bonilla-Silva’s Preliminary Map of a Tri-Racial System in the United State)
References
Jones Trina. The Significance of Skin Color in Asian and Asian-American Communities: Initial Reflections. 2013
https://www.law.uci.edu/lawreview/vol3/no4/Jones.pdf
In my own community, I've faced judgment because I am of a lighter complexion. Some encounters I have had with people in the black community about my skin tone are that I am a "lightbrite" "light-skinned (in a negative tone)" "redbone" and even "easy". A lot of people think I am mixed raced or of Latino descent. Black guys believe me to be easy because a common stereotype of light skin black girls is that they have a lot of sex and are willing to do anything. I am not sure where or how this stereotype started but it has put me in very uncomfortable situations. I know that some people of lighter complexion in the Black community try to pass as white and this was very common during segregation days and even nowadays this still occurs. This is very upsetting to me that people are ashamed of who they are and where they come from. I do not like this segregation in my own community. Some people of darker complexion think that people of lighter complexion think that they are better than them because of the passing concept and because White people accept lighter complexion Blacks over darker complexion. I have seen and witness this happen before as well. I've been told that I am pretty for a Black girl and even in the work field I have received better treatment than some of my co-workers who are of a darker skin tone.
Fascinated and intrigued by this concept I decided to look more into this and see others stories in experiences of colorism within their own community. A journal article that I read by an African American woman, Trina Jones, talks about colorism in Vietnam and the colorism she faced growing up in the United States. She speaks to a Vietnamese woman and here are some quotes that she shared with her "When I was a child, I spent a lot of time in the sun and I tanned easily, becoming dark after just a few days. This was not really a concern when I was young, but I remember my mom despairing as I grew up that she let me get too dark" (Michelle 2012).
When Trina herself was in Vietnam this is what she observed, “As I looked around, I also noticed that many women riding on bicycles and motorbikes wore long sleeves and hats and had similarly covered the lower halves of their faces with cloth. Some even wore white gloves" (Jones 2013).
Reading these stories and reflecting back to my childhood I realized how hard it truly is to be a part of a minority community. Not only are you faced with judgment from the majority race group and other races as well but also stereotypes within your own community. This can make one start to doubt their own identity and want to fit into some type of group but can't. It is very frustrating and a huge stressor for both adults and children alike. I am so grateful for the friends I have now and that I am able to discuss these topics with them in an open-minded environment.
In the future, I hope to help other young minority children have an open and safe place to discuss these topics because it is a very important conversation to have. Children need to have a sense of security and comfortably in defining their identity. They shouldn't have to feel constricted to fit into boxes that society, culture, race, and ethnicity gives them.
Here is a chart that I found very fascinating that helps further explain the idea and concept of passing and shows the Tri- Racial system in America
(Bonilla-Silva’s Preliminary Map of a Tri-Racial System in the United State)

References
Jones Trina. The Significance of Skin Color in Asian and Asian-American Communities: Initial Reflections. 2013
https://www.law.uci.edu/lawreview/vol3/no4/Jones.pdf